Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Keeeeeep Hoooldinggg Onnnnn......

It has been 18 days since I graduated college. I've never been the person to "cross that bridge when I come to it", and instead always try to stay one step ahead. So I spent the last half of my semester going to at least an audition a week. Some of these turned into callbacks, some were completely fruitless. But all of them eventually were cast, and I was not cast in any of them.

Graduation came, and I threw myself headfirst into more auditions, unintentionally putting more pressure on myself to rock the audition and land the gig, because now I was a college graduate; I need these jobs now! But again, no phone call

I had one day where I sulked, depressed that maybe my previous successes were flukes, and I was foolish to try to make a career in acting. Then, I sucked it up, talked to a few mentors, and got back on the straight and narrow road to success. Nothing about the future is secure, and often I'll feel blindfolded. But I haven't come this far to give up on my dreams. 

This weekend I went to L.A. and hit up a few auditions. Some went well, others not as well. But being in that great big city of dreamers reminded me that anything is possible. (I also got really excited for when I move there in 16 weeks!) And what I'm starting to learn from this plethora of auditions is that I am too hard on myself in the audition room. I can't control what happens in casting! All I can do is be the best I can be. And on that subject comes lesson number two: I'm not hard enough on myself when I'm not in the audition room. I don't push myself to train harder on a daily basis. I think this is a lesson we can all learn. 

What are you doing to grow your talents?
How are you cultivating your knowledge of your art?
What can you do to make your dreams more achievable? 


3 comments:

  1. You can do it Hannah. Keep yourself primed and ready to go, seek the encouragement of mentors when you feel down, and always always take hold of the opportunities that you are presented with!

    I'm glad you followed your dreams, even if they weren't certain or secure...a career in the arts is an abstract pathway but its so refreshing to see someone actually going for it! I commend you Hannah.

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  2. I hope you get casted in your dream job soon. :)

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  3. Well, ConGrAts on graduating and on MoVinG to LA!! Those are too very big things!

    About the auditions, if I were you I'd take some presure off myself, because both graduating and moving are big processes. That said, sure, train daily and don't beat yourself up in the room. And above all, don't take not booking a job as a sign of anything. And allow for the process of adjustment too.

    Congratulations again :D

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